Sunday, July 29, 2007

Growing Pains

What Not to Wear and I had a blast at a waterpark yesterday...just the two of us. No timeline, no agenda. Just us, water, and fun. An especially memorable moment came when we were in the wave pool. WNTW is not a full on swimmer yet, so she's pretty clingy when the waves come, even though she is laughing hysterically and loveing every minute of it. A wave came at us and it knocked my sunglasses off. I had to spend a few minutes searching the wave pool floor. In the mean time, the waves kept coming....much like my emotions this last week.
I can't decide what to do with all of the different emotions I am feeling. I am trying to process them one by one, but it feels like they are coming in waves and are knocking me over! I can't get my bearing. I very much know that I don't stand on feelings, but on facts, and I have some sweet promises to hold onto. However, in the midst of some MAJOR decisions my Deadliest Catch and I have to make, those promises seem just out of my reach. Where does that leave me? I can tell you where it used to leave me - knee deep in ice cream and any other sweet I could get my hands on...but now I am making the choice not to eat my feelings, even though I really want to. So I'm just trying to go to the Lord with it all. I have a feeling I may end up in the fetal position at His feet. Thankfully, He knows what to do with me when I'm there.


CPT Mom said...

So proud of you! You are making so many great choices and the Lord is honoring them.
Continuing to pray for you and your family.
Thanks for letting me experience the blessings in your life along with you. I am so glad we are friends!