Monday, May 12, 2008

lessons in awkwardness

Well, I just know you are oh, so, curious to hear my mother's day review. I just had to check in, as to not disappoint.

It was a great mother's day overall. I got to spend the day with the man who helped me realize my dream of becoming a mother. And, that my friends, I should not ever take for granted. We have a limited amount of time together, and he treasures every moment of our couple time. I, on the other hand, am distractable and unfocused. Hopefully, I can get it together and clearly see the blessing I have in him as my husband and father of our child.

The memorial service can be summed up this way...oh, the awkwardness.

I was able to see such grace in my husband yesterday. In the past, he has shown impatience at these types of events. There is history here that I won't get into, but suffice it to say, this was not our first awkward family occasion. My man was grace in action yesterday. He let the hurtful comments roll off his back, or the Lord covered his ears and he didn't even hear them. He helped with set up and clean up. He gladly did what he was asked even when it sounded odd to him. He sang beautifully. And most importantly, he spoke the truth in love when he was asked for his opinion on the service. He was such an example to me.

It is times like these that I am reminded of how much God loves every single one of us. It doesn't matter if we are quirky, awkward or say things that are plain out rude, He loves us just as we are. I want to be like that.

I want to love people more. I want to be less judgmental. I want to have more patience with people when I don't agree with their choices. Basically, I want to be more like the Christ whom I love so much.


holly said...

Wow. Rewind four years. Your post would have been so different. I find your account of yesterday to be such an expression of hope and beautiful grace. I simply marvel at what the Lord has done for you and your family. Thanks for letting me be a part...