Thursday, April 24, 2008

Today...

Today has been a hard day. I just need to vent a little and then I am off to bed in hopes of waking up tomorrow to a better day.

It was a stressful day. Nothing major happened. In fact, the day started out just fine. We had a nice lunch and a fun time at the park. I think it all went downhill after the Cutie looked at me in the department store and asked for Baby Blues. After I once again explained that he has gone to heaven to be with Jesus, she said, "Go get 'im." Needless to say, it broke my already fragile heart into a million more pieces. It's amazing that a toddler can innocently put into words the way that so many of us adults are feeling. We just can't voice it, because we know the all too harsh reality.

After this encounter, I was short-tempered, irritable and angry. I regret the lost opportunities to minister to my wounded friend. I regret the missed opportunity to hug Dinoboy and just reassure him how much I love him.

I am so grateful for the grace of my God and my friends who will allow me the opportunity to do it better tomorrow.

Good night.

2 comments:

Amazing Racer said...

Grace...

I've been humbled and amazed at how freely is has be given throughout all relationships during this tough season. What a gift from our Lord at a much needed time.

So glad for my friends.

Mary said...

Grace is a wonderful thing - something so large and so beautiful that we haven't a clue it's depths.

I'm so thankful for grace.

Hugs.