Where I am at...

I forgot to write last week and I really want to have a record of this journey.  So here are the weigh in results for weeks 4 and 5:

previous week:   184.0
last week:           182.0
                      -----------
                            -2.0  pounds

last week:           182.0
today:                 180.0
                      -----------
                             -2.0 pounds

Yay!  Beginning weight 189.5, so that's a 9.5 pound loss.  It has taken me a long time to get here, but I feel like I am getting better at this each week.  I am looking for lifestyle change, so slow and steady can get me there! (I sometimes have to remind myself as I watch the scale...)

Weighing in: Yet again

It was a tough week.  I had some emotional stuff come up and emotional exhaustion sends me into default mode.  Default mode is I just start running on auto pilot and not making a plan. So, all of a suden, I am hungry and I don't have any healthy choices available.  In good news, I did not go over my points most days.  But, I did not eat the healthiest choices nor did I drink enough water.  I didn't write down my points either.  Like I said: default mode.

I do, however, consider it a victory that I did not default into emotional eating whatever I could get my hands on- especially junk food.

Last week's weight:  184.0
This week's weight:  184.0
                           -----------
                                   0.0

My goals for this week are to get back to business.  I have already increased my water intake and I will be writing my points each day- good, bad or ugly.  I am once again packing healthy snacks for work and I will pack a lunch or have a plan as to what I will eat for lunch.  New goal for this week is make a better dinner plan for our family!

Weighing in for the 3rd time.

Week 2 is complete and I feel like I made some good progress.  I struggled at the beginning of the week and one day I just said "I don't care" and ate at Sonic.  Then I was offered some cookies and I ate those too.  I was frustrated with myself and it took me about a day and a half to recover, but I did it.  I was proud of myself for not giving up.  I have a history in my weight loss journey of giving up when I feel defeated.  But I pushed through and had some really good days as well.

Some victories:  I drank more water.  I ate within my points most days.  I found some yummy recipes on pinterest that are low points and are helping me get out of the cooking rut I was in.  I found a couple of healthy choices at the gas station where I stop in for bathroom and drink breaks, so I have some good options if I am hungry and needing something to eat.

To work on this week:  Keep at it.  Add some exercise.

Last week's weight:  185.5
Today's weight:        184.0
----------------------------
Difference:                  -1.5

Weigh in: Duece

I want to reflect on this first week a little to have documentation for myself.  The first week back on ww was powerful for me.  The first 2 days I went over my points and I was feeling discouraged with myself.  I made myself write down all of the points I ate even when I went over for accountability's sake.  I also reminded myself that messing up does not need to ruin my entire journey.

This week's victories:
*I drank almost 5 glasses of water per day.
*I ate within my points for 5 days this week and used 26 extra weekly points.
*I was out of town for 3 days.  In the past this would have given me reason enough to eat whatever I wanted.
*I feel like I made the first steps in changing my relationship with food.

Weigh in:    185.5
Last week:  189.5

This week's results:  -4 pounds.                Yay!

Next week's goals:
-drink more water
-stay within points
-make some ww friendly meals for my family

Weigh In: numero uno

Ok, things are worse than I thought.  But, I am not going to let that discourage me!  I am off to a great start this morning.  I have eaten a healthy, protein rich breakfast and packed snacks for my work day.  I have started on my water and have some to take with me in the car.  On my way to victory!!

Today's weight: 189.5 lbs.

I am back!

So in a completely random turn of events, I decided to come back to this blog and write about this new weight loss journey I am going to tackle.  Since my last post here more than 2 years ago, life has taken on a whole new look.  I have been separated, divorced, begun working full time and the one that leads me here today, gained about 15 pounds.  Now, those 15 pounds were on top of my post-pregnancy weight that was about 20 pounds higher than I wanted to be.  So, here I am today, confessing to you that I would really love to lose about 40 pounds.  I am no longer healthy and it is time for a change.

I have had every excuse as to why I wasn't ready to tackle this journey yet.  The Racer and I decided today that if we didn't just do it, ready or not, we may never.  There will always be an excuse.  I have lived enough life over the past 5 years or so to know that there will always be another stressor that I can emotionally eat my way through.  It is time to stop: time to break the cycle!

Here are my goals:

*Post my weight each week.
*Eat within 24 daily points allowing myself the 35 extra weekly points when necessary.
*Track daily points and journal what I eat.
*Work my way up to drinking 10 glasses of water per day.  (This will take a while.)

I am ready to tackle this and I need the accountability in posting it here.

Random - Sure

• It's almost Spring Break. Which has all of my Biology lab partners talking about their travel plans. Which in turn makes me think about how disappointed they will be when they can't take a week off in spring all the time. Which makes me think of my husband, who doesn't get a spring break.
• I am absolutely, completely, utterly thankful for our long winter here. I have declared it the BEST WINTER EVER. Long live The Winter of 09-10. Feel free to stick around for forever.
• Chris and I both cried at the series premiere of Parenthood. YES, there was quite questionable material on the show. And yes, we expected a serious amount of laughter and found it to be lacking. But we are now committed for at least one more week to the character with Aspergers.
• "Twin Day" for spirit week is code for "Things that make moms go over the edge and never return."
• I got a haircut. And color. And I love it.
• I have tests and meetings and therapies for Brody this week. So here I sit, blogging.
• Babies. I love them.